Tired of having disappointment

I think I'm a tad over-analytical/emotional/judgemental today. It's probly due to some hormones flying around in my body. But ever since I got off work today, I've not been a happy camper. I'm not mad, just not happy. Not sure if it's anyone's fault but my own.

I ran some errands after work - Costco, market, usual stuff. I felt so old pushing a cart through the aisles of Costco. Luckily, I was reminded that i'm not too old because I'm not at the age to buy a lot of the stuff in there...Mainly because I don't have a house to furnish (they have a ton of garden stuff there now), nor do I have a need for all their fun geeky electronics (again, things I have now are just fine), and no need for all the crazy vitamins, elixirs, meds, diapers (for babies....well, I guess grown-ups too? lol). My cart was pathetic - shampoo, conditioner, a movie, toilet paper, and some peanuts for J.

There were quite a bit of families, but also people shopping for their businesses. I always think about when I'll be those people and some young girl will be toting around her small cart with just a few items because her salary/checking account isn't too big.


When I got home, I hurried to put the things away, empty out the fridge, put all the toilet paper away (I think there's like 30 or something rolls!) and J is like "just sit down, eat, relax.". Um, this is when the judgemental stuff comes in. Immediately I start saying (in my head of course)

Easy for you to say. You came home and all you did was eat and play your guitar. I have things to do because that's what I do. I am in charge of this house. I can wait for you to do it, but that'll take to long. Must be nice.

I told you I was being judgemental. To his defense, he did tell me (without any prompts from me) that he was sorry that he doesn't just think of things to do. Although I got bitchy and said "you didn't notice the dishes in the sink? did you think that maybe the dishwasher needed to be emptied and reloaded?" He said he would have figured it out...Of course that was 5 minutes before he was about to leave to go meet up with some friends. I did it though. Didn't really complain. I guess it's part my fault because I so easily made things this way. I don't let him touch the laundry, he doesn't shop for groceries (unless it's for something we need for dinner - he'll pick up stuff), and he doesn't clean. Like, he'll clean up but not clean. No chemicals.

So, after I was done being a brat, I watched tivo, and then decided time to go to the gym...I haven't been (really) since the cruise. Whoops! It's just so easy to find something else to do!

On the way home, I called my sister because I came up with a great idea for Mother's day. Yes I know it's a few days away. But we're late planners (well, I blame this on my indecisive sister). In my mom's garage (also she lives there), there's a huge box of photos that just are all mixed together. Some are in the envelopes from when they were developed, some are just thrown in there.

I said we should go to Walmart, get some cheap photo albums, maybe some cute pens (for captions when we get inspired by a funny photo) and then have that as a fun project on Sunday. My mom has always been meaning to put these photos in some sort of order, but (like the gym), there's always something better to do!

She said no. She said my mom wouldn't handle it. Give the woman some credit! Sure there have been better times in her life. But we're in the present day. We can't change what's currently going on. There might be some tears, but there will sure as hell be a lot of laughs too. I gotta work on her. Or buy the stuff, say "you lost" and just do it anyways. I'm great at that ;o) (being a pushy bitch sometimes).

Finally, a calm day...

Well, Today's the first day in a few days that work has been a bit calmer. Sure, still processing a ton of new hires. But the drama has been low...For the most part. We currently have 2 more people that have bad backgrounds. I couldn't believe it, we had the exact same scenario happen again this week! Ok, so I thought I blogged about it. But I guess not. Basically someone knew they had a horrible record, and didn't really have an "active" driver's license because of the trouble they got into. So, they thought they'd be smart and just not put in their driver's license number for their background so it wouldn't be found. Ya. not so much for them. Weirdos.

But, the day has flown by. Tomorrow hopefully will to. I have a hair appt. at 4:30, then J and I are going to the dodger game with my aunt and uncle. It's Fireworks night!! Last year we went with Shortie's parents and a bunch of other people for the 4th of July. The stadium just does a really good job with the fireworks. I'm very excited!

Porgy and Bess - my first opera!

Last night J and I went to see Porgy and Bess. It's an opera that is part opera....part jazz...and very different from the typical opera with big white wigs, fat ladies, and a whole log of boredom. It's set in the 1940s in a poor neighborhood and is a story about a crippled man, a drunken slut (not really, but she was in the begining) and her lover that was also a drunk and abusive. The drunk lover leaves, the cripple shows his love for her, she's with him. Then the drunk comes back, tries to steal her away, big fight in the end.

It was really great. Our seats were 6 rows back, almost center stage. I was worried that I'd get bored, but it was awesome. The vocals of all the cast members was amazing. And, for times when you couldn't understand them - there was supertitles that ran above the stage (that was pretty cool.) During intermission I asked J what he thought - and he was enjoying it too. I don't think he was paying attention to the supertitles though ~ he said he couldn't understand part of what they were saying/singing, but got the overall point with the acting. I guess that's what it would have been like if the opera were in Italian. You just have to get the feeling from what the actors are doing onstage, and also feeling the emotion they give when they sing.

I liked it. I'm glad we went. The audience was a mix of casualware, business ware, and then dressy. We went the dressy route. I mean, when else will I get to wear my nice dresses? Only when I go on cruises? Nah.

cinco de mayo

Today is NOT Mexico's Independence day. That is on Sept. 16th. Today marks the day that the mexican army defeated the french at the Battle of Pueblo in the 1860s. So drink a beer for that, and drink again on the 16th of September for their independence day!

My drink of choice: Mojitos. Muy delicioso!

Made a good accomplishment...at the end of a crazy day

Well, so far it seems as if every Friday gets more and more crazy. Last week was the flat tire friday, then there the friday when we found out a guy was arrested and couldn't start work, and before that were all the friday's before the Vegas trips.

Today was no different. 3 phone calls within the first 2 hours of work that people didn't get their full pay. 1 got a check because we really got her timecards on time, but 2 were out of luck as we never got them, and therefore are considered late. Also found out that one of our pendings had to be formally let go, bad background. Then a guy calls - FedEx didn't drop off some checks, his included, and he was mad. We offer direct deposit for all employees to avoid situations like this. But, he says he doesn't "do" direct deposity cuz he has problems. Well, HE doesn't have problems, but he'd always have problems with direct deposits. Oh well.

I did get paid today, which leads me to my title of this particular blog. Last year, I bought a fridge for my place. I had to, and decided to just go "new." I put it on a Lowe's credit card and just finally decided (almost exactly a year later) that I need to just pay the damn thing off. $198.21 to be exact. So I did. So now I only have 2 (huge) credit cards left. They both have their pros and cons. The higher balanced one has a much lower interest rate, so every payment really takes down some of the principle. The other one has a lower balance, but a HUUUUUGGGGEEE interest rate. So every time you pay the minimum, you only put like, 5 bucks towards the principle. (slight exageration there...) Anyways, with the Suze Orman YF&B book, I'll be working on putting more towards the lower balanced/higher interest card until that one is gone. And she has a calculator on her site. If I pay the same $175 each month, she tells me it will only take me 3 years to pay off. Imagine that! Hopefully some months I can put more towards it! lol.

Anyways, however you spend your weekend, have a good one!

I guess it was good to suffer...

About 2 months ago I went to have a mole removed. I had one removed about a year prior, and they ended up removing the rest of it. It was a bloody fiasco. Well, I got a call from the doctor yesterday (actually, he left a message at my mom's house). So, I called him back and was told that he was on the phone and would get back to me.

2 hours later I still hadn't heard back. I tried calling him again, and now I was told he was with patients and would call me. I figured it must have been just to tell me I was ok. Obviously if something was horribly wrong, I wouldn't have been put on hold for so long about these results.

So, he does call me back. He said that the one they removed (that I actually went there for) was benign. But, he said for hte one behind my knee, that was a whole other story. He said that it was precancerous but I should be fine since it was removed. He wanted me to schedule a follow up in a month or 2 and have it looked at. He said that I wouldn't have any problems as long as nothing grows back.

Back the train up. What? I could have had cancer? What's the difference between a precancerous mole and a cancerous mole?

Now I'm freaking out because I had canceled an appointment to have one removed from right above my ear. I was afraid I'd bleed to death (not literally) because of how much the other one bled. And I'm afraid because what if they shave my hair off! Obviously not all of it. But still! Sure, call me vain. But that's a scary thought.

Another scary one is that I have cancer growing on the side of my head.

So, I called today, set up a followup and will see about getting that other one removed. And I'm bringing someone with me. And lots of paper towels.

Just a few more days

Well, it's just a few more days till the end of the week. Till the end of my challenge, till Cinco de Drinko, and possibly till a glorious afternoon in our town with lots of food and drink, for free! That one isn't in the bag yet, but J should found out soon if we can go. It's a pretty cool event - lots of local restaurants and businesses attend, offering some of their best cuisine and drinks. It's all inclusive with the purchase of the ticket. But, he might score 2 from his bosses. Nice!!

I was speaking with my friend on AIM today. We were discussing Coke's from McDonald's. You know, why they're soo great and so different from other restaurants. I explained to him that the syrup formula is still the same, but they add more CO2 to the mix in order to give it a different taste than other places. Many years ago, I worked in an fast food type place, and the topic of Coca Cola came up. A bunch of us wondered why it tasted different at different places. That was the reason we were told. I always wanted to crank up the CO2 there, but it was chained up and away from us measly employees.

So, I told him how I'd blog about it, give him a shout out - Hey JS! Anyways, I told him he should create a website that people can use to rate the different types of Coke's in the world (the beverage, not the drug). On the site, you can type in a location (approximate would work) and then rate their coke. There'd be a map that would pinpoit the spot, and give it a color rating. Green for excellent, Yellow for mediocre, and Red for YUCK! Anyways, he said that would be really hard to maintain, and he just got a new house and his gf is coming back soon and basically, all I heard was "blah blah blah." So I asked him if he had a blog, and he said only on his myspace. But I think even that is way outdated. Let me check. Yep. Last one was from 2005. yikes. I even suggested he could make a blog solely dedicated to his 500+ movie collection he has growing. But no. I think he's too cool for it.

Anyways, about the challenge. Except for the extreme cost of the tires from last week, I've not spent all the money. Oh, I did have to buy gas, but I had to put that on my credit card. Normally I don't, but when money is tight, you just do it. So, I have about 6 more bucks till Friday. Not bad. And I don't really have anything coming up that would need to use that cash. So yay for me! It IS possible!