I thought finals were the most difficult thing about college. Not massacres.

I've been keeping tabs all day about the disaster at Virginia Tech. I heard about it on my way into work this morning. At that time, only 1 person had been pronounced dead, but by 10am, the number was quickly increasing. I remember what it was like to be at school. Mondays sucked. Especially if you had to get up early for a class. I couldn't imagine what it would be like to wake up to gunshots.

In just hearing the reports, you can't help but speculate. And, since I majored in Psych and am a female, I also can't help interpreting things in my own way. Well, here's what I think. I think that because the shots first occured in a dorm room, a target was pretty specific. I mean, If you're looking to kill a whole bunch of people, you usually would think of going to a place where a lot of people would be. If you go to a dorm room, there's not many people lingering around at 7am. I know. Usually most of students are hungover or sleeping in. I don't know many that willingly schedule 8am classes on a Monday. That's just torture.

Anyways, so, if the shooter went to a dorm room, he was looking for someone (I say he, cuz usually women don't go shooting all kinds of people. And, well, they've been reporting it's an asian male). So, he's looking for someone. And, I'm guessing, since he later went to another part of the campus, he didn't find who he was looking for. But why shoot people up at the dorms? The only thing I can think of is that whomever he was looking for, wasn't there. And so he started asking the people around there. When no one was responding (because who really can think clearly with a gun pointed at you??) he freaked out and shot them to make them realize he was serious.

**sidebar - so, last night I watched an episode of Medium, where the husband ends up in a hostage situation. To let the cops know that the hostage taker was serious, he shot one of the people there....

Anyways, So, he flees to go find his initial target. At this point, he's got to be out of his mind, freaking out because maybe reality set in that he actually just shot some people. But maybe he's still so frustrated that he can't find the real person. At this point in time, the school is investigating that shooting. They close down the school, but probably only parts because it's a fairly large campus. And, by time word spreads, the second shooting occurs.

Why he shot so many at the second location is bizarre. But, he probably went on a shooting frenzy because he's just psychotic. And, he was in a place where there were more people within range. And then the bastard shot himself? What a wussy way to get out of it.

I feel absolutely horrible and sad for all the families that lost someone today, and for the students that were friends with those who became victim of this madman. Rumors are flooding around that he was distraught because his girlfriend had broken up with him. It's such a shame that a man goes to that length to try to get her back?? Or try to have her hurt as much as he did? It's just not a productive way to get your feeligns across. It's almost as if you're taking the easy way out. Instead of getting to the root of the problem and trying to work through the pain, you just freak out and shoot up a place.